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Overcoming PTSD Quote

I’m not crazy, I was abused.

I’m not shy, I’m protecting myself.

I’m not bitter, I’m speaking the truth.

I’m not hanging onto the past, I’ve been damaged.

I’m not delusional, I lived a nightmare.

I’m not weak, I was trusting.

I’m not giving up, I’m healing.

I’m not incapable of love, I’m giving.

I’m not alone.  I see you all here.  I’m fighting this.

— Rene Smith

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“Silver Springs” by Fleetwood Mac

You could be my silver springs
Blue green colors flashin’
I would be your only dream
Your shining autumn, ocean crashing
And did you say she was pretty
And did you say that she loves you
Baby, I don’t wanna know

I’ll begin not to love you
Turn around, see me runnin’
I’ll say I loved you years ago
Tell myself you never loved me, no
And did you say she was pretty
And did you say that she loves you
Baby, I don’t wanna know
Oh, no
And can you tell me was it worth it
Really, I don’t wanna know

Time casts a spell on you, but you won’t forget me
I know I could have loved you, but you would not let me

Time casts a spell on you, but you won’t forget me
I know I could have loved you, but you would not let me
I’ll follow you down til’ the sound of my voice will haunt you
You’ll never get away from the sound of the woman that loves you

Time casts a spell on you, but you won’t forget me
I know I could have loved you, but you would not let me
I’ll follow you down til’ the sound of my voice will haunt you
You’ll never get away from the sound of the woman that loves you

Time casts a spell on you, but you won’t forget me
I know I could have loved you, but you would not let me
I’ll follow you down til’ the sound of my voice will haunt you
You’ll never get away from the sound of the woman that loves you
You could be my silver springs
My blue green colors flashin’

Learned It On Me – One Lost Day; The Indigo Girls

there comes a time eventually
when the cold black water goes under the bridge
so I say yes we can meet up
it’s been too long and life goes on and I can do this

you wanna thank me for everything you’ve learned
for what went wrong and how I’ve paved the path
for the corner than you turned
and this is what you’ve learned

what you you lack from love is not a lack in someone else
and everyone has baggage to be carried
you learn that one plus one is one plus one is never more or less
and once you finally got it you got married

I guess I should be happy I’m the course that set you free
I just wish you hadn’t learned it on me

I’m better now though you almost broke me
and at the time I couldn’t see past my confusion
when I believed that love was real and not a bag of tricks
and you were always just more gifted at illusion (you wanna thank me for everything you’ve learned)

and you wanna thank me for everything I’ve learned
from the hard-knocks and the troubles
and the point of no return
all the bridges that you burn

what you you lack in love is not a lack in someone else
and everyone has baggage to be carried
you learn that one plus one is one plus one is never more or less
and once you finally got it you got married

I’m glad your education made you happy by degree
I just wish you hadn’t learned it on me

I guess I’m glad that I’ve seen you face to face
It’s just slightly more cathartic than a letter
but the line is pretty fine in fact it’s pretty much erased
between humility and making you feel better

And some is false and some is true and now I know
it’s just me and it’s just you
and it’s just the way it goes
and now that book is closed

what you you lack in love is not a lack in someone else (what you lack in love)
and everyone has baggage to be carried
you learn that one plus one is one plus one is never more or less (one plus one is one plus one)
best of luck to that girl you married

smiling on her little learning tree
I wish you hadn’t learned it on me

You.

You.
Everything seems to come back
to you
always you

every breath
each heartbeat
each step
is you

I never knew
It was possible to feel this way
To be this way
Yet here I am
Thinking of you

How can I be
Lucky enough
To have someone
So loving
So caring
So beautiful so perfect
In my life?

How is it possible
That someone
Like you
Could ever choose
Someone like me
To live out your days with
When you could have
Someone far better
Than me

I never thought
Someone so broken
So damaged
So jaded and scared
Could ever learn
To feel this way
And stay
Though my instincts scream
“run away!”

You.
You changed me
I think you saved me
When you showed me
That even I
Deserve to be loved
Despite my flaws
And constant shortcomings
You still stick around
And that’s why you’re stunning

Though I don’t want to
I see what’s coming
Someone will be hurt
This can’t last forever

Please quiet my mind
Prove me wrong with a kiss
Stay with me for long
Don’t let my doubts end this

You’re so beautiful
I wish you could see it
The scars on your wrist
Show you don’t believe it

If only a mirror could reflect what I see
Then maybe you’ll realize
You’re beautiful to me

I love you my darling
Now riddle me this
Do you fall for me more
Each time that we kiss?

Or am I just a lover
To keep you warm in the night
Will you fall for another
The first time we fight?

Please tell me I’m crazy
That you love me too
Because I would be lost
If I didn’t have you.

I hope I don’t scare you
When I say how I feel
I just want you to love me
I want this to be real

If I’m dreaming
Please wake me
Be cruel if you must
I think that I love you
This isn’t just lust

I hope this is worth it
This turmoil inside
It’s too strong to hide it
So to you I must confide

Don’t hurt me
My darling
Don’t leave me
My dear
I feel that our love
Is totally real

You are my sunshine
You are my rain
Every breath
Every second
Calls your name

To you
My precious
I’ll always return
For when I’m not with you
My heart it does burn

I yearn for your touch
Your kiss
Your hand
You have my heart now
Protect it if you can

Good Enough

(Chorus)

Will I ever be

Will I ever be

Will I ever be good enough for anyone

When are they are they gonna see

Are they gonna see

That no matter what they say or do

I will always be me

Here I am again

Feeling so inferior

Everybody acting like they’re so superior

With their grades

And clothes

And Ivy League acceptances

They’re all competing for the throne

And I’m alone

Will I ever be

Will I ever be

Will I ever be good enough for anyone

When are they are they gonna see

Are they gonna see

That no matter what they say or do

I will always be me

I work so hard

And dream so big

But when others hear my dreams

My life gets torn at the seems

By their cruel laughs

As they tell me I’ll never make it

I climb so high

Inside my head

I rule the world

Writing music in my bed

Trying to prove them wrong

Please show me they’re wrong

Will I ever be

Will I ever be

Will I ever be good enough for anyone

When are they are they gonna see

Are they gonna see

That no matter what they say or do

I will always be me

(bridge)

And I try

And I try so hard

To be what everyone

Wants me to be

(voice over)

But they don’t realize

They can’t change me

No one can change me

No one can change me

Nobody but me

Ha!

I’ve finally learned

To deal with the pain

Of being knocked down again and again

Because no one thinks I can make it

But I will prove them wrong

I have to prove them wrong

Will I ever be

Will I ever be

Will I ever be good enough for anyone

When are they are they gonna see

Are they gonna see

That no matter what they say or do

I will always be me

I know I’ve gotta be

I know I’ve gotta be

I know I’ve gotta be good enough for somebody

I’ve gotta make them see

I’m gonna make them see

That no matter what they say or do

I’m finally good enough for me

And I’m always gonna be me

I will always be me