James 4:10-12 (KJV Bible)

“Humble yourselves in the sight of the Lord, and he shall lift you up.  He that speaketh evil of [his] brother, and judgeth his brother, speaketh evil of the law, and judgeth the law: but if thou judge the law, thou art not a doer of the law, but a judge.  There is one lawgiver, who is able to save and to destroy: who art thou that judgest another?

Things You’ll Never Know

I’m sorry
For the way
I acted
Around you

I’m sorry
For everything
I did to you
Said to you

I’m sorry
For who I was
Who I became
Around you

I’m sorry
That I’m sorry
You don’t deserve
To know how I feel

I’m sorry
I gave you power
Over me
Never again

I’m sorry
I made you hurt
So much so
That you would hurt me

I’m sorry
If I broke you
Know that
I didn’t want to

Mostly
I’m sorry
That I’m sorry
You don’t deserve that

The more
I think it through
The more I know
I should never have trusted you

I know things now
I didn’t know then
Things you’ll never know.

Here, Kitty Kitty – Little Blue Pill Lyrics

Here kitty kitty here kitty kitty here,
Here kitty kitty here kitty kitty here,
Don’t come close, don’t come near,
Have I made myself clear?

It’s ok to want me, but you want nothing else,
Sitting back and plotting is a crime in itself,
I can see the writing ’cause I wrote it on the wall,
Does 50 feet or less mean anything to you at all?

You can’t conquer and divide just because I’m open wide,
You can’t catch me though you try,
You can kiss this goodbye.

Don’t come close, don’t come near,
Have I made myself clear?

You cannot control what you do with your mind,
But you’re crazy if you think that you can touch the merchandise.

You can’t conquer and divide just because I’m open wide,
You can’t catch me though you try,
You can kiss this goodbye.

You can’t conquer and divide just because I’m open wide,
You can’t catch me though you try,
You can kiss this goodbye.

Don’t come close, don’t come near,
Have I made myself clear?

This is a song by Anna Waronker as Haley Blue in the hit TV show “Castle”.

Threshold Lyrics

Inside this life,
Under it’s spell,
I close my eyes,
And live to tell.

The hands we’re dealt,
Will never disappear.
Death she grows near.

CHORUS
People change,
And instantly.
I’m not the same girl,
I used to be.
I can’t erase all the memories,
But I can explain,
If you’re listening.
People change,
Not just me.

Locked up in silence,
A living hell.
My heart still beats,
So I bid farewell.
The loving hand that saved me,
Held too tight.
His darkness weighs
On me at night.

CHORUS
People change,
And instantly.
I’m not the same girl,
I used to be.
I can’t erase all the memories,
But I can explain,
If you’re listening.
People change,
Not just me.

I never asked,
Or wanted to.
You stepped across my threshold,
How could you?

These lyrics come from the band Little Blue Pill portrayed on the hit TV show Castle.  You can catch this show in it’s eighth season on ABC Monday nights at 10PM EST.  I believe this song is featured in Season 2 of the show but I don’t recall what episode.

If you couldn’t already tell I adore this show ❤ it’s definitely one of my favorites so I don’t mind shamelessly promoting it of my own free will, especially when it represents so perfectly words I want to say but can’t find the words on my own. r

Alive – Sia

I was born in a thunderstorm
I grew up overnight
I played alone
I’m playing on my own
I survived

Hey
I wanted everything I never had
Like the love that comes with light
I wore envy and I hated that
But I survived

I had a one-way ticket to a place where all the demons go
Where the wind don’t change
And nothing in the ground can ever grow
No hope, just lies
And you’re taught to cry into your pillow
But I survived

I’m still breathing [4x]
I’m alive [4x]

I found solace in the strangest place
Way in the back of my mind
I saw my life in a stranger’s face
And it was mine

I had a one-way ticket to a place where all the demons go
Where the wind don’t change
And nothing in the ground can ever grow
No hope, just lies
And you’re taught to cry into your pillow
But I survived

I’m still breathing [4x]
I’m alive [4x]

You took it all, but I’m still breathing [8x]

I have made every single mistake
That you could ever possibly make
I took and I took and I took what you gave
But you never noticed that I was in pain
I knew what I wanted; I went out and got it
Did all the things that you said that I wouldn’t
I told you that I would never be forgotten
And all in spite of you

And I’m still breathing
I’m still breathing
I’m still breathing
I’m still breathing
I’m alive (You took it out, but I’m still breathing)
(You took it out, but I’m still breathing)
I’m alive (You took it out, but I’m still breathing)
(You took it out, but I’m still breathing)
I’m alive (You took it out, but I’m still breathing)
(You took it out, but I’m still breathing)
I’m alive

I’m alive [4x]

This song reminds me of the character Kate Beckett from the abc original show “Castle”.  If you know the show and Beckett’s backstory you’d know how much this song relates to her and just how much of a fighter this character really is.  Normally I wouldn’t advertise for a large network like abc but since the show is so amazing despite being under the threat of being cancelled I’d recommend it to anyone and everyone.  I can provide a brief synopsis for anyone who asks. 🙂

Breathe

“Breathe. You’re going to be okay. Breathe and remember that you’ve been in this place before. You’ve been this uncomfortable and anxious and scared, and you’ve survived. Breathe and know that you can survive this too. These feelings can’t break you. They’re painful and debilitating, but you can sit with them and eventually, they will pass. Maybe not immediately, but sometime soon, they are going to fade and when they do, you’ll look back at this moment and laugh for having doubted your resilience. I know it feels unbearable right now, but keep breathing, again and again. This will pass. I promise it will pass.”

— Daniell Koepke

Overcoming PTSD Quote

I’m not crazy, I was abused.

I’m not shy, I’m protecting myself.

I’m not bitter, I’m speaking the truth.

I’m not hanging onto the past, I’ve been damaged.

I’m not delusional, I lived a nightmare.

I’m not weak, I was trusting.

I’m not giving up, I’m healing.

I’m not incapable of love, I’m giving.

I’m not alone.  I see you all here.  I’m fighting this.

— Rene Smith

Alexis’s Graduation Speech (Castle Season, Episode 23)

“There is a universal truth we all have to face, whether we want to or not, everything eventually ends. As much as I’ve looked forward to this day, I’ve always disliked endings. Last day of summer, the final chapter of a great book, parting ways with a close friend. But endings are inevitable, Leaves fall, you close the book. You say goodbye. Today is one of those days for us. Today we say goodbye to everything that was familiar, everything that was comfortable. We’re moving on. But just because we’re leaving, and that hurts, there’s some people who are so much a part of us, they’ll be with us no matter what. They are our solid ground. Our North Star. And the small clear voices in our hearts that will be with us … always.”

Presented by Molly Quinn as Alexis in the hit TV series Castle on ABC