Category Archives: Music

Good Enough (Ballad Form)

Will I ever be
will I ever be
will I ever be
good enough for anyone?

When are they gonna see
are they gonna see
no matter what they say
I will always be me.

Here I am again
feeling so inferior
everyone around me
acting so superior

with their perfect grades
and designer clothes
competing for the throne
and I’m alone

(Refrain)
Will I ever be
will I ever be
will I ever be
good enough for anyone?

When are they gonna see
are they gonna see
no matter what they say
I will always be me.

I work so hard
but inside my head
I rule the world
writing music in bed

my life is torn at the seams
when they hear my dreams
I’m trying to prove them wrong
I’m gonna show them they’re wrong

(Refrain)

(Bridge)
You know I try
yeah, I try so hard
to be who everyone
wants me to be

(Spoken)
What they don’t know is
they can’t change me
no one can change me
nobody but me! (Ha!)

I learn to live the pain
people saying I won’t make it
knocking me down again
I know I can make it

(Refrain)

I know I gotta be
I know I gotta be
I know I gotta be
good enough for somebody

I knew eventually
that I’d be finally
good enough for somebody
yeah, I’m good enough for me

I’m gonna make them see
I gotta make them see
no matter what they say
I’m good enough for me!

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Slow Down

Life

it flies by

too fast

one moment you’re a child

the next you’re on your own

facing the world alone

facing life alone

 

(chorus)

I wish

oh how I wish

I could slow it down

make the world stop spinning

if only just for a day

 

if I could only slow it down

how I want to slow it down

them maybe just maybe

I could remember who I am

 

love

come out wherever you are

I’m right here waiting for you

right here waiting

for you to come find me here

 

I wish

oh how I wish

I could slow it down

make the world stop spinning

if only just for a day

 

if I could only slow it down

how I want to slow it down

them maybe just maybe

I could remember who I was

 

oh if I could fly

If I could slow this down

just for a little while

then maybe

I could just remember

who I am

and who I was before

 

I wish

oh how I wish

I could slow it down

make the world stop spinning

if only just for a day

 

if I could only slow it down

how I want to slow it down

them maybe just maybe

I could remember who I am

 

the past

the past is always here

its always watching

always reminding us

of who we said we’d always be

who we never wanted to be

what we’ve become

and who we are

who we are

 

I wish

oh how I wish

I could slow it down

make the world stop spinning

if only just for a day

 

if I could only slow it down

how I want to slow it down

them maybe just maybe

I could remember who I am

 

I see small children, young children

running around on the dance floor

without a care in the world

other than being tagged “it”

in a game of tag

 

so sweet

innocent

not yet jaded by the world around them

Gone But Never Forgotten – Dedicated to Grandpa Boots

I can feel you

feel you with me

feel your glow

your spirit with me

 

you’ve been gone now

for a while

but even now

you make me smile

 

because you’re gone

but never forgotten

you may be gone

but never forgotten

 

I know you have to go

within my loving heart

something you must know

you can never depart

 

Somewhere inside I know

you’re still here with me

in each drop of rain and snow

you’ll never leave me

 

because you’re gone

but never forgotten

you may be gone

but never forgotten

 

But this is our fate

and this is our truth

you mean as much to me

as I did to you

 

hundreds of stories

people share about you

millions of memories

of when we knew you

 

we danced to your music

drifting from your piano

a part of your symphony

where ever we may go

 

because you’re gone

but never forgotten

you may be gone

but never forgotten

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Good Enough

(Chorus)

Will I ever be

Will I ever be

Will I ever be good enough for anyone

When are they are they gonna see

Are they gonna see

That no matter what they say or do

I will always be me

Here I am again

Feeling so inferior

Everybody acting like they’re so superior

With their grades

And clothes

And Ivy League acceptances

They’re all competing for the throne

And I’m alone

Will I ever be

Will I ever be

Will I ever be good enough for anyone

When are they are they gonna see

Are they gonna see

That no matter what they say or do

I will always be me

I work so hard

And dream so big

But when others hear my dreams

My life gets torn at the seems

By their cruel laughs

As they tell me I’ll never make it

I climb so high

Inside my head

I rule the world

Writing music in my bed

Trying to prove them wrong

Please show me they’re wrong

Will I ever be

Will I ever be

Will I ever be good enough for anyone

When are they are they gonna see

Are they gonna see

That no matter what they say or do

I will always be me

(bridge)

And I try

And I try so hard

To be what everyone

Wants me to be

(voice over)

But they don’t realize

They can’t change me

No one can change me

No one can change me

Nobody but me

Ha!

I’ve finally learned

To deal with the pain

Of being knocked down again and again

Because no one thinks I can make it

But I will prove them wrong

I have to prove them wrong

Will I ever be

Will I ever be

Will I ever be good enough for anyone

When are they are they gonna see

Are they gonna see

That no matter what they say or do

I will always be me

I know I’ve gotta be

I know I’ve gotta be

I know I’ve gotta be good enough for somebody

I’ve gotta make them see

I’m gonna make them see

That no matter what they say or do

I’m finally good enough for me

And I’m always gonna be me

I will always be me

I Will – Dedicated to Cote de Pablo

These past eight years

you have played a crucial role

in the lives of millions of fans

and your coworkers

 

we have watched you grow

on and off the screen

and we grew right along side you

 

eight years ago

I was a mere child

unsure of where I was going

we grew together

changed together

laughed and cried together

even though you’re worlds away

from a fangirl like me

 

we once dreamed of ballerinas

and singing on international stages

not knowing what was to come

or where fate would take us

 

with you leaving NCIS

and I graduating to adulthood

we both have our goodbyes to say

new journeys to begin

 

In watching you leave

a million hearts shattered

but pieces of our hearts will stay with you

like paper clips bind paper

 

as the tears fall

like emotion enhanced raindrops

I think back to one

final scene of NCIS

and the list of things

your character aspired toward

in her childhood

 

just like her

I’m making my I Will

inspired by you

 

I dedicate my drive for knowledge

in history and language

and every single choir concert and play

to you

 

you may never know me

and I’ll never know you

but I wish to send my love to you

where ever you go

 

what ever you do

you are extraordinary

in a world full of ordinary

I’m glad you came to the show

and I hope one day you return

 

but until then

much love and luck to you

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Childhood Lost (Lies)

even on the best days

something has to come along

and change the way I think or feel

about something or someone

I miss the endless childhood days

when all you had to worry about

was being home by dark

growing up

you learn how naive

and protected you were

and all the lies they told you

to protect you from this cruel world

I wish we could turn back the clock

go back in time to the beauty of innocence

and endless summer days

we grow up too fast it seems

looking back in retrospect

it’s funny how all kids want

is to be adults

not knowing they’re wishing away

paradise

growing up

you learn how naive

and protected you were

and all the lies they told you

to protect you from this cruel world

as I get older

I’d give anything

to get that beautiful innocence

back again

I guess at some point

we have to decide

whether it’s better to know everything

or know nothing

and be protected and safe

growing up

you learn how naive

and protected you were

and all the lies they told you

to protect you from this cruel world

it hurts

to watch the little kids

grow up too fast

and envy what you have

when you know one day they’ll regret it

growing up

you learn how naive

and protected you were

and all the lies they told you

to protect you from this cruel world

the lies start small

like Santa and the Easter Bunny

but as things get worse

the lies get bigger

your dog ran away?

no, it was run over by the trash truck

your parents just can’t handle breaking your young heart

yet

in trying to protect you

the little lies build up

until you don’t know

what’s true

and what’s not

growing up

you learn how naive

and protected you were

and all the lies they told you

to protect you from this cruel world

when we discover

all the secrets kept

we begin to question

if you really are better off

with a really big lie

and you doubt yourself

and everything you thought to be true

growing up

you learn how naive

and protected you were

and all the lies they told you

to protect you from this cruel world.

Bad Boys & Good Girls

Focus in on a good girl

as she tunes out

and daydreams about him again

ignoring her nerdy boyfriend

as he passes her the chemistry lab

as usual he comes in late

ever so nonchalant

in his beat up leather

and torn skinny jeans

everyone knows he’s going no where

and in her head she knows it too

but he’s a habit she can’t kick

and every moment without him

feels as painful as withdrawal

it’s been like this since freshman year

the moment she first saw him

walking into honors french

silver spikes in his ears

and his hair in a Mohawk

despite his reputation

when they worked in class together

she could barely keep from blushing

when he asked her out to dinner

even though it’s just pretend

everyone knows he’s going no where

and in her head she knows it too

but he’s a habit she can’t kick

and every moment without him

feels as painful as withdrawal

in the next room

there’s a boy who adores her

and although he says he loves her

he feels her slipping away

when Jaimee walks into the room

he has not leather

and his shoes are tearing at the seams

just like his heart

when he catches her dreaming

they’ve been together for a year

but their passion’s slowly fading

and his heart is painfully breaking

worn at the seams

from all her daydreams

everyone knows he’s going no where

and in her head she knows it too

but he’s a habit she can’t kick

and every moment without him

feels as painful as withdrawal

but it’s normal

they’re in high school

few relationships last this long

in a year he’ll leave for college

and Jaimee may drop out

everyone knows he’s going no where

and in her head she knows it too

but he’s a habit she can’t kick

and every moment without him

feels as painful as withdrawal

she doesn’t know

that two hearts will break in tandem

all for the sake of a romance

that everyone knows

will never be

that’s the thing about bad boys

good girls fall too hard

and too fast

seeing the best in the worst of them

and wonder why their heart is broken

not knowing they’re doing the same

a broken heart you can’t fix

innocent love ruined

everyone knows he’s going no where

and in her head she knows it too

but he’s a habit she can’t kick

and every moment without him

feels as painful as withdrawal

Analysis of Colors — Inspired by Taylor Swift

As obtuse as it may seem

we like to compare emotions

to colors of the rainbow

 

when we are down

we say we feel blue

 

yellow can be compared to exuberance

and high energy

 

red is the most notorious

it could be anger

lust or fiery passion

the most common of course

is love

 

love is shared by pink

which could also symbolize friendship

and springtime

or the birth of a baby girl

 

green can also represent spring and winter

some burn green candles when promoting good health

green can also be for luck and sometimes jealousy

 

Black is the darkest color of all emotionally

it commonly represents death

rebellion, anger, hate

and mourning

black can also the color of night and Mariana’s Trench

 

White is the color of innocence and virginity

it also symbolizes weddings

and spiritual awareness

 

very close to white is silver

the color of the Wicca Goddess

and the mystical full moon

 

Gold is silver’s brother

glittering like sunshine

the most precious color of them all

gold is a symbol of power and strength

 

purple is the color of royalty

the first color of cloth and a sign of wealth

it is also the color of spirit and love

through everything every day

 

color has significant significance

of our history

and our emotions

color is a way to express who we are

just like art

Words – Inspired by Taylor Swift

Words are the basis of our world

we use them to describe

what we do

what we think

and how we feel

 

words are so simple

we don’t realize

how much the words we say

affect the people around us

 

sometimes they can be

uplifting and kind

and encourage others

to respect themselves

and make the world a better place

 

on the other hand

words can be weapons

that can destroy someone

regardless of intention

 

people can be so cruel

regardless of age

words can still cut like knives

especially when they possess some element of truth

 

what hurts the most

is when someone you trust

stabs you in the back

in the name of truth and reality

 

 

we get our hopes up

thinking that when we’re older

all the mean people will go away

which is the biggest lie ever

 

with all the words

we could possibly choose to use

in any language

or conversation

at any time

some choose to be mean and vulgar

 

pop culture makes it okay

when they endorse celebrities

that are paper thin

and use the nastiest words on the planet

 

we dignify the mean girls and boys’with the way we respond

even if we don’t lash out

or break down and cry at that very moment

something in our eyes

gives them a sign that they hurt us

provides a fuel to keep them going

 

we’d like to believe

what doesn’t kill us

will only make us stronger

and that words will never hurt us

but this is rarely true

we never want to admit

that words hurt more than weapons

and physical pain ever could

March On

Can’t stop fighting

never stop fighting

through every valley

and over every mountain

just keep fighting

here we are again

each hill we climb

something always pushes us down

we wanna quit

been fighting too long

and we’re tired of trying

but then a voice in my head

in the back of my head says

Can’t stop fighting

never stop fighting

through every valley

and over every mountain

just keep fighting

with each failure

I die a little

don’t wanna let anyone down

not when they praise me

and say how far I’ve come

in my heart

I know they’re right

I’ve come too far

to end it all

Can’t stop fighting

never stop fighting

through every valley

and over every mountain

just keep fighting

I know now

we all have battle scars

and a destiny we must complete